Friday, September 3, 2010

Life and Family update.

I have been so incredibly busy.. yet very lazy lately.. I moved this past weekend so since I was so crazy and exhausted from that I have spent a little bit of time each day this week trying to finish the unpacking and setting up. But I have been broke and have not been able to go anywhere sure helps with the laziness I have been feeling. Its still a struggle for me with my sister, we are fighting a lot more lately, I guess the way I look at it is Im not obligated like a parent is to spend money on her or to take care of her or to have her living with me, I do it because I care. So why does she act the way that she acts and why does she think it is okay to yell at me.
So since she has lived with me in February she has had her moms child support card, I have been paying the bills out of my pocket without any child support I threw her a birthday party and I have bought her school clothes and supplies and a new L.L. Bean bookbag. These things I have done on my measley paycheck along with paying the bills. The O2 sensor is out in my car so my car is using double the gas it should, which is extremely expensive. Even after we moved and my sister was capable of riding the bus she still got up and had me take her to school. I used every bit of gas to take her to and from school, I asked her when she got the child support to help me out with gas (we recently got into a fight and I told her from now on half of the child support is going to me to help with bills and the other half is going into her savings account to save for a car next year), so the child support came yesterday and we headed to the store and got a few groceries for her to have because I was heading out of town last night and tonight, and I got gas as well.
There was supposed to be double what went on the card I kept telling her to call and find out why, I thought that it was weird that she wouldnt just call like I had asked I thought maybe she was lying to me about the amount that went onto the card because this is the first time that she was going to have to give me half of it. Which I still believe she lied, I know that it is not great to think that about her but the way that she was acting seemed very shady. But I asked her one more time in the middle of the store would she call and she started yelling at me and people started looking. I was so extremely angry, I waited till we paid and go out to the car and I told her will you please tell me what the hell is so hard about calling and seeing why the amount was less than it should have been. I told her you want me to consider you my equal but you yelled at me into the middle like you are some kind of grown adult and your not.
She thinks that she can live with me and I pay for everything for her clothes shoes food gas in my car to take her everywhere, and she thinks that she should get the child support to spend on whatever she wants and she thinks that I should struggle with every penny to make it stretch. She has a job so its not like she has no money, child support is to support a child and she is spending it on whatever and Im tired of it. She doesnt want to listen to me and its getting to the point that Im feeling drained and at my breaking point.
But to change the subject Im babysitting my 2 year old niece and she never ceases to amaze me I love when she hides her eyes she thinks you cant see her. She turned 2 July 25 and she has been potty trained since you was about a year and a half old. She refuses to go to the bathroom alone so every 30 minutes she grabs my hand and says pee pee I love her SO much!
Im really excited because Im going car shopping next week! Im waiting and waiting, I feel like the time is never going to get here. Im looking at Jeep Compass, Jeep Patriot, Jeep Commander, Dodge Nitro, then Mazda 6, Toyota Prius. I cant wait to see what vehicle I will finally get!! Well this has been really long so Im gonna go!